(No premise just free-styling)

When I was young I never fit in! I spoke my heart and I did not hold back my opinions on things. I was wild, hyper and full of endless energy. I grew up in San Clemente California. I guess you can call it a surf and skateboarding town and I lived well. My dad was hard working and came out of a wealthy family. My grandpa was a construction building developer and my dad was a general contractor.

I was pretty much spoiled in the sense that I always had freshy clothes and good birthdays and Christmas’s you know worthless material shit ? I had a Minnie skate park in my back yard and when the grass was under repair at one time had a little dirt bike burm that went around the back yard and brother and I would hit after we launched off are 15 foot freestyle moto ramp on to the flats (grass) ?

Brother and I where the young cool kids that hung out with all the older kids. The well-known skater boys that ripped at skateboarding! I skateboarded with tony hawk and I body boarding with pro bodyboarders and my next door neighbor was a partial owner of Billabong (surf company) and I would get trash bags full of gear for free just for hanging out and watching his young child haha!! Yeah, I had a blessed childhood in the sense that I was never bored and had tons of neighbor kids on my block to hang out with. I also had a basketball court in my backyard.

Behind my backyard was a giant canyon and I would go hunting with my dog Boomer and latter bodie I called Zimbabwe haha or bodies. I loved nature and would spend hours in my canyon just running around playing a wild Native American. I would cut down bamboo that grew down there and my dad taught me how to make flutes or spear guns out of them haha.

My upbringing was troublesome though because I got into drugs and alcohol at a young age. My parent’s divorce really affected me and I found an outlet and a way to numb and escape. I started smoking weed and started drinking alcohol and later got into pain killers then hard drugs came in after I went to a rave and did ecstasy. When I did that drug I become very social it triggered something in my brain and helped me bring down the walls to loosen up to others and after that was able to build with woman. Before that I was just scared of them because I didn’t want to be hurt, I didn’t want to experience the pain like my parents divorcing and splitting up. I just looked to woman as objects and I felt threatened by relationships with them until I became a young adult I learned how to commit and be loyal. And when I learned this I became very LOYAL even though I have never experienced this from others.

I was the wild reckless kid that made everyone laugh and I was known for being tough and always “winning” the fights. I was known for being “sexually inappropriate” and I had no verbal filter.

I become a typical thief, liar, and anything else that drugs create in that low vibration realm of reality I had to experience to climb out off to the one I am in now. The conscious realm if you will or the state of awareness!!

Believe it or not, I was a racist and built my identity in “white supremacy” when I was in high school I was so lost and brainwashed and I had tons of hitchhikers influencing my subconscious mind. Now I believe white skin is a genetic weakness funny how that works hahaha

I was into punk rock music, metal, surf punk, ska, Reggie and alternative music mostly and I used to go to shows and get involved in mosh pits. I used to freestyle punk rock songs at party’s back then haha for a good laugh? I also went thorough isolation phases as a young adult or teenager and I would get stoned and isolate myself in my house.

I went through a phase of bodybuilding and used to be pretty ripped. I’ve taken steroids and I loved being the guy that people didn’t want to mess with. Again I was lost and just trying to find myself a lonely abandoned kid trying to get love anywhere I could find it.

What affected my life greatly was when I heard the news my brother died from a drug overdose my heart was ripped out of my chest and I felt like I was dying when I heard that news. My brother and I grew up at 12 months apart and we both looked up to each other a lot. I fell into a depression I was about 23 years at the time. I started drinking heavily and I remember I locked myself in my room and I drank and stared at the walls and listened to Jim Morrison and Eddy Vedder all day. I replayed that song society over and over again. That experience helped me see that a life void of morals and principles created pain and suffering and drinking and doing drugs really damaged the human body which is what lead me to systemic acidosis and the path I’m on now regenerating my body from the amazing amount of damage I created. I would take a handful of pills and drink for years after my brother died. I abused my body hard from 23- 30 years of age.

About a year into my detox I heard the news my best friend died the same way my brother died. He lived in Hawaii and my main reason to move out there to help him detox his poor health back to wellness.

I was realizing at this time that life here hurts and that it’s important to not get to attached to it and to look at life as a mission of using my gifts, suffering, trials, and pitfalls to inspire and reflect love on my reflections and that’s why today I see this community as my family and I’m more “attached” to the mission of helping the made well people get well haha and that we can all grow on this journey together like a soul tribe.

Life is a mission of waking up and learning from our past experiences and being grateful for the journey because without the pain and struggle there is no higher self-development. We are all weak before we are made strong and love is understanding.

I will be real, authentic, and I won’t stop with the mission I am called to and that’s it love unconditionally, serve with passion and desire, and to just be me and learn to never hold back from being transparent and to come more into the free authentic self. Judge me, label me and try to “expose” me all you want but remember you can’t expose real because real exposes itself. If you don’t fuck with me awesome, I’ll hold space for you when you are ready and all those that have slandered me I love you too just remember you can’t dim the lights when they are shinning this bright. To all the trolls out there trying to suppress the truth, I love you but ?hahaha ❤️??

#morals&principles forever

#SoulTribeNation

Get back to nature my friends, get back to a diet that your biological design to eat, tap into your intuitive Consciousness, let your instincts guide you, live in the present moment, and I promise you my friends you will thrive!

Written by Jonathon RA Stearns AKA the Mangotarian

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