Have you ever experienced a situation that didn’t turn out the way you wanted it to? Did you replay it in your head because you put so much value on the situation and you wanted it to prosper but yet it didn’t the way you wanted it to?

It’s ok we all sometimes replay the past, with a certain outcome to occur in the present and we fantasize about the future and we get bullied in the mind that we just can’t make things work away from that we desire.

First, understand when you want something so bad to work and your soul resonates with something like never before you are growing and learning to let go of attachments of worry in a world of duality and free will. Sometimes you have to break in order to be fixed and sometimes you have to go through the pain before you can experience the blessing that is ahead.

I AM and I also am human! I have wounds and scars and traumas from my past and even past life karma being served in my current reality and it’s fucking intense. Excuse my language but I can’t help but not put emphasis on the pain coming out of my body emotionally when I surrender to the reality of my growing, because I am not running away to a distraction to suppress the darkness inside creating more karma and more struggle when I can face my demons now.

Understand when you wake up yes you have free will but you don’t have an escape route when it comes to you reap what you sow, or you can’t escape karmas cause and effect when you are in the knowledge and refuse to surrender to the growing.

I am in a cycle soul fam of feeling the most intense yearning and emotional purging like I have never dealt with before. Yes I’m sad and yes I’m in tears and certain situations are mirroring the pride and the ego and the shit inside me from not dealing with my past wounds because I chose drugs and alcohol and toxic relationships that didn’t serve me in any way to avoid doing the work to bring me into a place of true inner peace and ascension. So I must sit with the pain and I must allow it to come out as I wait and grow by surrendering to the process without trying to distract myself with desires and the pleasure of the negative energies of the world!

Don’t think for a second that I’m this wide-awake young man that doesn’t struggle because I Channel the god force and I spit knowledge that’s inspirational! Yes I can write, I can rap and I can exude an energy that you will fill you and you will be changed by it but the more I allow my soul to develop and I detoxify the subconscious minds program of matrix I sit in pain and sadness and I feel so weak like a little boy waiting for a mother to pick me up coddle me and tell me everything is going to be ok!

I know the blessing is coming and I know the grass is greener on the other side and I know there is hope for better days emotionally but the reality is the more I desire to love and grow the more my heart keeps breaking, and breaking!

Yes I am a star seed, an empath, a light bearer and a healer and I am a source of light and love but I struggle and I must be transparent in that struggle and that fear and playing with the doubts in my head allowing my mind to bully me because I’m lazy to manifest and focus on positive affirmations daily!

I’ve come so far and I’ve been broken and broken and broken so many times and I have to say when I surrendered to the light path of love and a soul contract reflection taught me unconditional love (divine appointment) I’ve never experienced mental and emotional detoxification at this level when it comes to learning to not be attached to so much desire outside myself!

Soul fam I am in the trenches and I am being worked on by my spirit guides like never before and the upgrade to my heart is being prepared so I can continue to download my consciousness online as a sacrifice to the mission to bringing awareness and to just inspire through my own personal struggle and beautiful development because that’s why I’m here, to transform so I can show me and show you what it’s like coming to form a lifestyle of evil to living the now life trusting the universe as I come into the light and embody the essence of my true nature! The knowledge of self will set me free! I AM and I am human!

# the warrior path # fuck the “easy” route that leads to destruction!

Get back to nature my friends, get back to a diet that your biological design to eat, tap into your intuitive Consciousness, let your instincts guide you, live in the present moment, and I promise you my friends you will thrive!

Written by Jonathon RA Stearns AKA the Mangotarian

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